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Why bother
To think it'll change
and maybe you won't be invisible
forgotten

Why bother
to wonder why you're forgotten
you just
don't matter

Why bother
with thinking that
maybe this time
you'll be treated better
like he always is

Why bother
when you know
you won't
time and time again

Why bother
it's all just
the same old same old


Why bother
caring


... because you can't stop.
If home is where the heart is
Then mine is far away
For as much as I love myself
I loved you more than me



A thousand nights spent missing you
And even though you'll never know
You're always welcome in my heart
I'll gladly spend a thousand more



I finally stopped counting
The time that you've been gone
How quickly though
Could I still figure it (It's 2 months till a year)

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It's crap. Not my art, my life.

I'm on government aid. Not disability, but welfare, until my MH and other issues are sorted enough to figure out where I stand. Even so, I've applied for jobs and either been ignored, or am still waiting to hear back.

My son's birthday is the 12th, and I can't afford anything for him, not even a cake. I got him one toy, an I owe my Mom for that. Next month I have to buy him school supplies, and somehow buy him new some new clothes, and probably should buy him new shoes, but that will have to wait.

My car just died. Won't start. Jumping it won't help, so it's likely the starter or alternator, both of which are $100-$200 parts alone - plus it can't be started so I can't even drive it to a shop.

Then there is the money owed to my mother, my brother, and several past-due medical bills that are heading to collections.

How am I supposed to get to appointments, including the weekly therapy appointments I need to attend to get the welfare? By making my brother take me everywhere, until he gets work. Meanwhile, he has his own appointments, interviews, etc...

I'm tired. The world seems like it'd be better without my problems. I'm not going to do anything stupid, no worries.

I'm selling art. Mirrors or anything else. It'll do no good but the offer is there.
  • Mood: Suffering
  • Listening to: TV Commercials
  • Reading: Nothing
  • Watching: Nothing
  • Playing: Nothing
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Cherry Real Sugar Pepsi
So this year has a seen a tiny bit of stuff.

The mirrors, and now a bit of writing.

I make no promises on anything.

But I hope it's good.
  • Mood: Tired
  • Listening to: Fan-generated white noise
  • Reading: Nothing
  • Watching: The clock tick on
  • Playing: Whatever I want
  • Eating: Pop Tarts
  • Drinking: Water as usual
So this year has a seen a tiny bit of stuff.

The mirrors, and now a bit of writing.

I make no promises on anything.

But I hope it's good.
It's crap. Not my art, my life.

I'm on government aid. Not disability, but welfare, until my MH and other issues are sorted enough to figure out where I stand. Even so, I've applied for jobs and either been ignored, or am still waiting to hear back.

My son's birthday is the 12th, and I can't afford anything for him, not even a cake. I got him one toy, an I owe my Mom for that. Next month I have to buy him school supplies, and somehow buy him new some new clothes, and probably should buy him new shoes, but that will have to wait.

My car just died. Won't start. Jumping it won't help, so it's likely the starter or alternator, both of which are $100-$200 parts alone - plus it can't be started so I can't even drive it to a shop.

Then there is the money owed to my mother, my brother, and several past-due medical bills that are heading to collections.

How am I supposed to get to appointments, including the weekly therapy appointments I need to attend to get the welfare? By making my brother take me everywhere, until he gets work. Meanwhile, he has his own appointments, interviews, etc...

I'm tired. The world seems like it'd be better without my problems. I'm not going to do anything stupid, no worries.

I'm selling art. Mirrors or anything else. It'll do no good but the offer is there.
  • Mood: Suffering
  • Listening to: TV Commercials
  • Reading: Nothing
  • Watching: Nothing
  • Playing: Nothing
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Cherry Real Sugar Pepsi

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ponygirl

Artist | Hobbyist
United States
Current Residence: NW Oregon

32 * Mother of One * Lost, confused, broken
Living one day - One moment - at a time.
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Megido23 Featured By Owner Jul 14, 2014
Thank you for the fav!
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Thank you for the watch!
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thx for the watch :D 
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Thanks for the watch ma'am~
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Thanks for the watch ^u^
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thanks for the fave! :hug:
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Thank you very much for the fav!
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thanks for the fav! :hug:
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Thanks so much for the fav. :)
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WhiteKnightNocturne Featured By Owner Mar 20, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you so very VERY much for the fave!
Blessings of Random upon you!
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